I didn't go to high school, so I didn't get a yearbook. But you know how you look back at old pictures of yourself, and ask, "What was I thinking?" or "Man, I thought life was hard then!" Well, today I stumbled upon something that made me ask those very questions of myself. And many more.
I found the web address of a blog that I had in 2003. This was the year Donnie and I got married. We had no kids, no career, no worries.
It's funny to look back and read this, to see what was important to me back then--like an old diary from junior high. There are a lot of posts about eating healthier, and quitting diet cokes. (Oh, how many times have I quit diet cokes!?)
One thing that I notice has not changed is my need to create. I need to be engrossed in some hands-on, color-rich, sensory activity to feel like I have done something. This is a feeling that has actually increased since becoming a mother. Moms, if we choo se, can live our entire lives perfecting the art of dishes and laundry. Manners and carpool. But these are tasks that never end! They are never complete.
Creativity for me is a way of marking time, of changing seasons. Art projects can be completed and set aside. They can be checked off a list, and I can move on to something else.
The role of wife and mother is one that I would never trade. I would never give it up. I am continually amazed at the rewards. But sometimes you just need a completable task. One that you can capture in a picture for future reference and say, "Hey, I made that."
All of the pictures in this post are that for me. If you want to go and look at the old blog and laugh with me, please be my guest! <click here>
But now, if you'll excuse me, I have laundry to do.
--Anna